Wednesday, January 8, 2014

"Featured Blogger."

I am a 'Feature Blogger' on http://www.audreyisms.com
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Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Happy New Year Everyone:)

Wishing my Dear Fans, Followers, Readers and all my Blogger friends A Very Happy and a Great Year 2014.

Thank you for being my force to live this life with a purpose and meaning. Thank you all for being supportive and encouraging me to fulfill my dreams and passions. Thank you for being present in my life as a "power and purpose to define my identity."

Thank you each one of you for helping me continue my journey- with your encouraging words everyday!!

Let's continue inspiring each other's lives by sharing the joy of words. Let our words heal crying hearts and give strength and courage to get up and fight back with disheartening situations in life. Let there be care, love, compassion and respect of feelings and unspoken, downtrodden emotions.
Let there be "good life" for Everyone!!

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

I took care of MYSELF to take care of MY FAMILY

“What you do today can improve all your tomorrows.”
                                                                               -Ralph Marston
I love to hear these words- ‘Take care,’ makes me feel so special and cared.
I even like to hear when somebody says: ‘Take care of yourself!!’ Feels like ‘you’ matter in their life. But I could have never learned the serious message in it, until I realized- this means, “look at you- you have been neglecting yourself.”
Take care of yourself- really had a strong message for me.
I like to immerse myself and feel the wise words and suggestions- when I read books of my favorite authors. And this is when I came across the line -“Remember… nothing is as important as you are…..Take care of yourself…”
I paused for a moment to over think- Am I really taking care of myself? Do I really know what I want in life?
Talking to anybody won’t help you, as much as talking to yourself about you-would do.
By the time I realized this- I was already a hypothyroid patient, a stay-at-home tired mom, a dependent wife -with no other identity- who had no future vision, subdued dreams, no passion to live with (except my daughter), and was still living a satisfied life- living happily- but not from inside out.
Taking care of my feelings, my needs and my dreams were so important; but I never paid attention to any of those emotions.
I kept my days busy- with my family, affectionate husband, adorable kid and life’s daily struggles.
The mantra of my life was-“Accept what is there without indulging in- what I want!” But inside me all I needed was: ‘A Life Lift.’ Certain constant creepy feelings kept stroking against my unspoken emotions.
Deep down inside me I always wanted to step forward and do something- I have been longing to start.
I felt restless, frustrated, depressed, and just like a failure. My thyroid problem helped me adding up to those negative feelings and I sensed- I am going to lose it!
I wanted some inspiration to take care of the loose ends in my life, behavior, career and my emotional needs.
I wanted to have my own identity- apart from being a ‘dependent’ wife and a mother to 1-year old daughter.
I realized: I was not living my dreams; and that is not all I wanted.
Rather than screaming demands, I decided to make my family understand- my values, dreams and passion- I must listen to my heart and carry forward this life-happily.
Life is just too short-to-not-dream and to-not- execute- your- dream (s) in real life. But actually, I was not sure-what I wanted to do and where to start from!
There was already 4 years gap between expectations and reality (in my career), and there wasn’t anything I was doing, that could have defined my skills and experiences.
“I was just another woman- on a quest to-define her dreams and values.”
I didn’t have the courage to stand up again (all alone) and select my purpose. All I did was: just kept thinking- how to begin.
I was not unhappy with my present life, but, “I wasn’t happy either!”
I am glad: I realized it sooner than later. Taking care of my emotional needs was as important as taking care of my physical and social needs.
I didn’t have anybody to hold responsible for my present condition, but sometimes I felt- all were responsible- my family, my life, my idleness, my past, my disinterest and actually everything around me!
I decided: I will listen and comprehended every possible demand of my unspoken needs.
I took care of all the hidden stress- to balance my life.
Improving upon my emotional health was a rewarding experience, benefiting all aspects of my life: including boosting my dull attitude, building resilience, confidence in my acts, and adding to my overall enjoyment of life.
Few tasks I realized was necessary right away-
1.    I am first, while being there for my family always- I was already a tired mom and a restless dependent wife. But at that moment, all I needed was- a long worry-free nap!
 I could not think of anything else that would have satisfied- my not so pleasing heart and mind. I wanted to wake up fresh and energetic to take care of my family’s requests.
 2.    Understanding of my emotions to develop a ‘strong’ family- Always deep within me, I was struggling with some unspoken fears and failures.
Fear to take on anything new-that may lead to another failure; while past failures kept haunting me over and over again. But soon I learned- I had gained a good amount of wisdom and courage from my failures, and so decided: I will take the challenge and move ahead in life.
 I allowed myself to dream once again, encouraged to try something new, and do it!
 3. Learned about my weaknesses to strengthen my family- We have more weaknesses than actually we can think and accept.
  Next important thing I wanted to do was- to take control of my negative qualities like: feeling neglected, always ranting, hopelessness, uncertainty, unhappiness, disinterest and feeling regretful.
 I was afraid- I had actually passed a few to my family; because they knew- I was not an enthusiastic person (I used to be) anymore. Actually I was horrified by this thought- how I can help my family stand strong and take on any challenge- that life throws at them- when I am not confident!!
Ultimately the commitment to myself- helped me rediscover the power of my own spirit. I understood: When I learn more about myself- I can teach my family and guide them through similar paths that I tread!
 4. I decide to “live my passion” while practicing compassion- I followed my passion. My life is equally enjoyable now as it was before, but in a different way. I can ‘now’ define myself. I have a purpose. This explains everything. I was looking for a passion; for a purpose- that will define me. And I am glad: I was able to identify this.
 I risked taking up my writing career once again. I (always) wanted to share my experiences and help people- uplift their life –through emotional setbacks. And I knew ‘blogging’ was the best option. But I could not imagine- failing in life again!!
I decided to respect my well-being while remaining connected to my family-both physically and emotionally. But being a mother and a writer- was never going to be easy.
But I also didn’t want to hold onto the regret, just being a stay-at-home mom, so I ‘valued my dream and taught my husband and kid too; to value each other’s happiness and dreams.
 5. I caught ‘my dreams’ to create new ones for my family- Certain areas of my life definitely needed attention and re-work like: mind, body, soul, emotions. Oh! Hope I did mention just few!
 I had to understand what can bring me happiness and a satisfactory life (at present) – to understand and care my family’s needs!
 I am glad- “I did take care of myself,” and improved all my tomorrows. “I remained concerned about my life, wishes; inculcated respect and ‘value for dreams’ in the family, while respecting my thoughts and visions.
End of the day- it was all about “attitude,” attitude towards own life. I continue to wear a ‘caring attitude’- for myself as well as family. It has been two and a half years now; I am still a dependent wife and a stay-at-home-mom; but now I live with an identity-that defines me and my purpose of living.
I have also added another passion to my hat- photography. I try to justify my roles while paying attention to my happiness, dreams and interests.

Monday, December 2, 2013

28, 29, 30, 31 & 32 of 365: One Picture per day

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